The importance of self love is a bullshit dogma. Such a narcissistic concept possesses intrinsic, paradoxical flaws. Self love alone cannot keep a man alive, for death is an easy escape from the commitment to self. Humans need an external motivator to live. A goal to vie for no matter what. Unconditional love.
There is a small issue. Everything and everyone I love are those which have shaped (loved) me as a person, and thus is the ultimate form of pathetic self love. I do not believe I am capable of unconditional love. Losing those who love me is equivalent to losing the ones I love. And if that happens, how will I stay alive?
Nothing is subject to my unconditional love, so the next best option is to look for sustenance. Look for those who will love me unconditionally, and hopefully outlast me. The confinements of physicality unfortunately means that my hunt for Sustenance cannot end at my parents - who are keeping me alive as I write this. I concede that it is egocentric to expect unidirectional unconditional love, but contrition over something I have no control over is futile.
The word 'love' is used very broadly, it obviously goes beyond eros and also beyond agape. Unhealthy obsessions and addiction could easily fall under love in this context. I even go on to use love as a euphemism for influence.
You might be wondering why I have not yet killed myself if 'self love alone cannot keep a man alive'. That is true. I would not need Sustenance if I were dead. Yet my desire for Sustenance suggests that I do, in fact, have unconditional love (for Sustenance or something beyond). That is to say, I live to find Sustenance, to live. This meta loop (and the entire piece) is not as confusing if you juxtapose love with the meaning of life. The meaning of life being to find the meaning of life is a common idea shared by many.
Coding a python script to aid me in one of my favourite internet games.
Challenging myself for 2021's Singapore Science and Engineering Fair, where I received a Silver Award.
Ongoing puzzle series that forces me to explore more areas such as Lua, pixel art, story, and puzzle design.
Tracking my expenses with a custom spreadsheet with useful analytic features.
Exploring web design, scripting, and hosting by creating a simple personal page.
Creating Logos, Brochures, T-shirts and more for Fairfield Robotics Club.
Taking key components of the Korean flag and playing around with different concepts.
Creating Logos, Videos, Stickers and more for STEM Inc.
A collaborative project where I learned a lot about music creation and created a promotional poster.
Trying my hand at Swiss Poster design using Illustrator.
Set of stickers for personal use. Acquiring knowledge of the craft and making cost-benefit decisions.
Practicing glitch effects and using unorthordox file formats in After Effects.
Learning how to create and showcase an identity, as well as learning to consolidate different iterations.
My experiences before, during, and after the biggest Model United Nations event in 2018.
Sustaining a long term project involving an expository piece every week for 120 weeks.
Recreating some of Singapore's MRT stations using a unique medium - voxels.
